In 24 hours...

I can shatter my world in 24 hours. I am sure people have done it in less, with less effort (not counting anything like car accidents and such).

I managed to anger 3 adults with random words in a blog post. One of which was already angry at me for unknown reasons. The post was full of nonsense sentences, and when read aloud sounded quite funny actually. Which is why I thought to share them- they had started in a word document... and when I reread them I thought they were funny. Unfortunately there was apparently unresolved issues with these 3 individuals and when they read these sentences they read hidden meanings that were not there. And instead of asking what it was all about they decided to go on rampage.

I am a very special person, I see things in different ways than everybody I know, I also have a very logical brain. So I have extreme artsy and extreme nerd. In me they live quite harmoniously. This is my gemini trait- maybe even could be thought of as dual personality but not really.

My artsy side is flighty and sometimes down right out-there... thinking up the most random stuff. While my logical brain just scratches its head at this stuff. So when there is too much floating around in my head- my logical side says get it out and like a recorder in a courtroom- its just writes away at whatever babble comes out of the artsy mind. This process isn't really to understand anything but to clear some room in my head for the really important stuff- like my job (which I love), my kids (LOVE) and my Hubby (LOVE LOVE LOVE)!

My artsy side is usually kept in check and my logical side holds her tongue. I have a tendency to be extremely opinionated but I do not like causing conflict. So I end up sitting back and watching things like standing behind a glass wall. I see them- they see me but we don't get very close.

Well that is how I shattered my world... I let artsy brain talk logical brain into sharing nonsense... and got bit in the butt hard. And since I broke my cardinal rule of not causing conflict all of me recoils back into the shadows to watch again....its a cycle that I someday hope to break. I start in the shadows of my glass box and slowly learn to love the light, to glory in it, to smile and laugh with it and as everything seems safe to be fully me so I put trust in the sunshine and expose myself and of course- I get burned. (Being fair skinned and the sun just don't get along very well).

So now I have lost my best friend, my second mom, and these 3 individuals in my life. There might even be a few more....all over nonsense.